Here's looking at you baby!

Ha! Peekaboo! We can see you even though you're in my belly! Sneaky peaky! 

You're so scrumptious all rolled up like a cinnamon bun in there! I LOVE YOU! 

Sorry from my heart again that things have still been a bit all over the place, I know how terribly that affects you. 

Sorry also for having the bath too hot the other night. You were not happy, I could feel that, thanks for letting me know. 

Still trying to get our lives in a more peaceful place my peanut, and still working on getting our care changed to a midwife and studying everything I can to give you the easiest, least stressful birth possible...will get there, sigh. 

Little squiggle on your toes! Oh, your toes, can't wait!

x Mamu

 

Our gorgeous baby girl at 21 weeks scan! She is going to be as beautiful as her mom!

my baby girl

Dear Babu!

Time is flying out here. You are almost 24 weeks old! Yey! I still have not told you about how we got to know that you are a girl, but I have written a little bit on a bumpy lumpy bus to university, and I will for sure write to you about your scan!

So now we know that you are a girl! That means I am going to have two girls in my family, well that means that there are 3 girls in our family actually ;-) We are taking care of Cookie, who is a cute little kittie, except when she is eating dadu's plants. you might be bale to hear her now and then, though when you hear a deeper sound of purring, that's your dad when mom is massaging his shoulders or sore head that gets too sore from studyign a lot.

My dear girl. I just wanted to say that I love you very much and that despite the fact that I am very busy with school and cannot be there for you or for your mom all the time, that does not mean that I am not thinkign about you. In my heart you are the most precious and beautiful miracle that has happened out of your mom and dad's big big love (into which you will come very soon, in less than 16 weeks ;-))

And don't worry about coming to this world because you great parents waiting for you to surround you by much love and care.

Love you my baby girl!

butterflies and rainbow sunshines

dad

Thinking about nothing else but you...

I can't think about anything else but you at the moment my little peanut! Except for your dadu, he's a part of my soul and therefore in my mind and heart every second of the day.

I am busy reading a book called Ina May's guide to childbirth, and it's opened my eyes and stirred a primal response deep in my being about how to bring you into this world. Today I spent lots of time researching how to move our care to a mid-wife, I wrote a long letter to a mid-wife group that feels perfect, and now I await their response to see if they have space to care for us until the moment you arrive...and after even! Holding my breath!

I think about you, and dream about you, and feel your little elbows and feet banging my belly like a bongo drum, and all I want to do is prepare for you. 

I'm still working but I'm just hanging in there for a little longer as I'm ready for a change. I need an environment that's easier on us both, and some time and space for you and I to get to know each other.

You can probably hear dadu's voice too....he talks to you all the time. He loves you so much little monkey, he rubs my belly and covers it with kisses, which he hopes you can feel. He also wants to feel connected to you, so he comes to pre-natal yoga with us...and most times is the only male there! So precious!

He's still working really hard, but he makes time to dream about you too. He loves your name too and so we both talk to you using your name already, you probably will know it by birth!

Sigh, got to go my little babu. It's late and I've got to get ready for bed so that I can wake up and make it through another day...until you arrive!

x Kisses, and snuggles and hugs!

x Mamu